i want that. you know, that one special person. the one who will call me up no matter what the time, just to ask one simple question. the one who, when we argue, i never fret, because i know nothing will ever happen. i want it, where when everyone else goes running, i stay. when everyone else is afraid, I'm filled with adrenaline. through one simple touch, my whole body tingles, and i never want the moment to go. someone who will love me unconditionally, just because. i want each kiss to fill like the first one, because that's how magic each moment is. i want all my fears to melt away when I'm with them, and know I'm never alone when i have them. i want to be able to feel the magic. to be really able to feel it, right to the bone. to my heart. to actually feel the spark within me, and feel it dim into a glow. yeah, i want that.

Apparently, when I'm drunk i seem to have some malfunction where i refuse to smile properly, obtain random items of clothing that i didn't posses before, and wreck my hair completely. great. maybe i should lay of the alcohol for a while.

It seems that while I'm LL, your beginning to take a whirl into what you caused others. I'm glad, and hope you stay there for a while. You deserve nothing else.

Brought a new outfit for sixth form today. Will post pictures of it soon ;D

I'm in a very creative mood today. i just want to get out my scrap book, and get going. i want to write for ages, and just get everything released.
you don't understand how good it feels to finally be rid of you. to be able to make other plans, and not worry you'll find out. i don't have to sneak around anymore, and i love the feel of being free. you don't understand how your pushing everyone away. look around, who have you got? I'm even turning your last friend against you. i realise that makes me sound like a bitch, but I'm not doing it in aim to hurt you, she just has a right to know all the stuff you've said about her. all the lies you've told about her. she needs to know, that she doesn't really know you. i take back my wish for happiness i gave you. i hope you live your ultimate downfall. i don't care about you anymore. if you want proof, just say something to me. I'm not going to back down any longer. I'm done. goodbye.

"hate is a strong word, but i really really really don't like you."

last night went pretty good. knuckle hurts now though, and i feel really ruff, but it was good. i keep fretting, and will be glad when next wednesday comes.
Got my results yesterday, 5 B's :D sixth form, here i come. [: