i was just listening to leona lewis - happy, and it got me thinking. for so long now, Ive been feeling so unhappy, and for that, i have no idea why. everything going on was good, so i was just thinking whats going on? Earlier today, it hit me. These good thing's were going on around me, not with me. Ive been so busy making sure i don't make the same mistakes, Ive been pushing myself further and further away, until i was standing on the side-lines, watching. Just watching. So, Ive had enough. I'm getting myself involved. Sure, i may get hurt, but at least ill go down happy, than withering away, watching.