i swear all the people who just got blogs are beginning to get fed up with them already. i dont think i could ever get fed it with mine. it lets me vent, resulting in me not exploding every day (': however, it does seem that my writers block has returned again. so i'll leave with the thought of Christmas. woo.

i 'wanna be a vampire. :)

i don't know what to write tonight, other than i need to buck up my ideas and get going. its not all going to wait for me.

we did this with no problems or arguments last year, so what makes it so hard this time round? is it because we're older, and getting more stressed about our grades, or is it simply selfishness? is it a singled out bad guy, or is it all of us together? is it the 'higher authority's' fault, or is it ours, just because we lack the capacity to bond together? and last but not least, if one of us gets shot at, do they go down by themselves, or is it all for one?

i can't tell you how good it feels, not to have that dark cloud that is media work hanging over my head anymore! its such a relief knowing that its all done, and i don't have to worry about it. - until unit 2.

More and more of my friends seems to be getting blogs now. i guess that English lesson was somewhat, inspiring? and then there's me, that's had hers for months now, writing away haha. not that i mind (':

christmas is getting more and more closer, each day. it shows too. the shops are getting all their festive stock in. the 'wee' ones have already started their countdown, and I've actually wrote a christmas list this year. i have a feeling its going to be a good one.

Its like i want to cry while smiling.

I've been sat here, trying to think of what to write for a while now. The truth is, i don't know what to write, because i don't know what i feel. During the time when I'm with my friends, I'm at an ultimate high, and feel on top of the world. However, when I'm on my own, or even with my family, i start to feel down. I know why, its my mind. One negative thing triggers off another, and soon enough my whole head is filled with over-powering thoughts. When I'm out, so many conversations are flowing, that its impossible for a bad thought to slip in. However, when I'm alone, there's no barrier to stop them. That's the cause of my mood swings. That's the cause of everything. I think of myself to be a positive person, however my mind seems determined to bring me down. I don't have a bad life. Its not perfect, but who's is? So why do these thoughts continually seem to pull me down?! The worst part of it all, is that when I'm down, i stay down until someone breaks me free. Why, whenever I'm alone do all of these thoughts appear?

nothings changing, so i have nothing new to write. my life is on a repetitive spin. someone throw me something, please?

permanent writers block. Christmas is a permanent thought bubble in my head. permanently on a downer, trying to get up.

Finally things are looking up. I have a good time at school, and enjoy being with the people there. Even the work is begining to look up. The only down side is this problem with my head, but we all know im too much of a wimp to get that sorted out. I'll just begin to limit myself, and actually wear my glasses. Lets hope im okay, because im secretly terrified.