just some poem i made up one night when i was bored (:

Greatest moments, behind your eyes
is where it all comes, settles, lies
a single emotion, so easy to show
its not always the true feelings that flow
its often a cry for someone caring to run
all of this destruction, baby put down the gun
there's a better life, ahead in the light
i know you can do this, please just fight
in your future so many greater things lie
take my hand, i can make you fly.

kinda depressive, but hey what isn't in my blog ;)

HAPPY CHRISTMAS BLOGGERS!

God, my mood changes so much around christmas time. ive just finished opening all my presents, and im so very glad that everyone likes what i brought for them! i hope everyone has a good time today, and piles on the pounds ;) go nuts;go crazy.

i had such an amazing time last night. i haven't let loose like that in a while, and it felt good. i do admit i get carried away though. once i tell myself that Ive had enough, i think about crappy times, and i want to drink more. but oh well i guess. i loved just dancing the night away, and a hangover and some cuts and bruises are a small price to pay!

i cant wait until the next party. honest.

I love how the snow changes everything. It seems to cause and lift bad moods. People change in the snow. Their inner child come out, and everything seems more christmas-y. Even the people who don't like the snow, when they go out in it, smiles are created. I think that white blanket is magic.

i don't get it. all ive ever been is nice to you, and yet, for some bizarre reason, your horrible back. is that just the way you are, or have i done something unintentionally? if i have please tell me, because we cant go on like this, its too frustrating.

on a lighter note, im going to London on Saturday, so i can get lots more clothes! :D

each time i write a blog, it follows the same lines. "im feeling down, but im stopping that now".
...i've yet to stop it. its not as if i don't try. im trying with all i can, each and every day to stop feeling so low, but its just something inside of me, dragging me down. i need to find out what it is, to defeat it. i can't do this on my own, and i need some help. but getting help is admitting defeat, and everyone knows thats something i dislike doing. i refuse to arrange another appointment.

there's always that famous quote floating around somewhere. "everything happens for a reason." it also links in with the thought, "all of that has built you up for this". however, if I'm completely honest, that's bullshit. there was no reason for all of that. there was no need for it, and i could of gotten to where i am today without it all - maybe even progressed further in my life. if i could go back in time, i would erase all of it, because there certainly was no reason for it. so please don't give me all of your crap, because your words are just bullshit.