each time i write a blog, it follows the same lines. "im feeling down, but im stopping that now".
...i've yet to stop it. its not as if i don't try. im trying with all i can, each and every day to stop feeling so low, but its just something inside of me, dragging me down. i need to find out what it is, to defeat it. i can't do this on my own, and i need some help. but getting help is admitting defeat, and everyone knows thats something i dislike doing. i refuse to arrange another appointment.